happy birthday, defaultlyric!

i am glad you have had excellent birthday shenanigans already and i hope they continue today. love you, miss you, wish i could be there to stuff you full of cake. GIANT PADAHUGS!

UGH UGH UGH I AM ON TWITTER. this is all your fault, misha collins. i hope the queen never lets you go.

also, my hypothetical future spawn that we have previously discussed? i am totally naming that kid dafydd tiberius. NO REASON.

aaaah star trek!

i must see it again. and srsly, bring on the fic. where is it i need it.

also i have five dreamwidth invite codes up for grabs, comment with your email of choice if you want one.

so the goddamn backlight on my laptop just went out last night - poof! - causing me to spend literally hours shining a flashlight on the screen IN A PANIC trying to get all my files onto the external hard drive before the entire machine just explodes or whatever, because that really seems like the next logical step.

so did not need this. D:

i have marked my territory (which sounds really awful) at dreamwidth, where i am also wildmachinery. i am fervently hoping that they will have a flexible squares layout option when they launch so that i can transfer the css that i mostly stole just finished tweaking, i'm really liking it over here. for now, though, i have no posts there, because i'm not entirely sure what i want to do with it but i am sure that i don't want to import this journal in its entirety, and only six icons, aaagh, it feels naked.

( cut for emo )

i am also drinking american mass-produced flavored light beer and enjoying it. i am very ashamed of myself, but in my defense, at least it's not pomegranate. D:

UGH EGGS EGGS EVERYTHING IS EGGS. yoga this morning was full of the most incredibly loud breathers, like a whole class full of darth vaders or those people who call you and just breathe heavily at you instead of saying hello. also there were far too many people and it took much planning to make sure i wasn't going to whack the guy next to me in the head or something. seriously, we were doing that, idk, spread your legs and bend over with your hands on the floor or whatever asana, which is vaguely dirty at the best of times, and all i can see is the back of this guy's head behind me and all i can think is that he's going to stand up and headbutt me in a not-sharing place and we are both going to be very embarrassed and can i stand up now pls. and i was not at my best this morning anyway and felt very constricted and COULDN'T BREATHE i mean SERIOUSLY how hard is BREATHING but NO so EGGS EGGS UGH YUCK.

mostly though it's just gray and wet and cold outside and is the kind of day where really the only thing you can do is take a hot bath and just wait for it to be over, but i can't take a bath all day, i'd get bored within an hour and also, pruney toes, bleh. what to do, what to do. CLOSE THE DRAPES, I CAN'T BEAR THE WORLD TODAY. D:

anyway, go read this, i laffed, it is very excellent if you like that sort of thing which is merlin with breasts which everyone should like so go read it, GO.

"... In the secret parts of his peculiar brain, those unhappy and inextricable tangles which he felt at the roots, the boy was disabled by something which we cannot explain. He could not have explained either, and for us it is all too long ago. He loved Arthur and he loved Guenever and he hated himself. The best knight of the world: everybody envied the self-esteem which must surely be his. But Lancelot never believed he was good or nice. Under the grotesque, magnificent shell with a face like Quasimodo's, there was shame and self-loathing which had been planted there when he was tiny, by something which it is now too late to trace. It is so fatally easy to make young children believe that they are horrible." -t.h. white, the once and future king, pg 368 (1987 ace edition)

i am kind of in sadlove with that last line. also i am watching the lawrence of arabia i snagged for stupidly cheap at the buymore for a double dose of epic tragedy. his eyes are just so ridiculous, i can't look away. GOD HE IS SUCH A PRETTY PRETTY PRINCESS IDEK. D:

this is kind of extremely awesome.

the reliquary, ancient and modern.

CHECK IT OUT IT IS HILARIOUS.